Some of the casual sketches (# 1-12, ~ 4x6) compiled for Psyched Out are included with descriptions here. I see Psyched Out as a sort of (mini) 'colouring journal.' You can write notes, thoughts or impressions on left side blank pages as well as around the images, in the border area. The right side images can be coloured if desired. DIY can send their thoughts as a card or frame the 4x6 images as well. It's expressive action(s) ... This compilation of sketches isn't 'great' artistic work as artworks go, but for me, it ihelped me stay busy - and got done. I've been dealing with too much for too long, trying any and everything - self affirming when at times I was doubtful. Nothing was working. Now, I can draw again and this is a start. It would be interesting to hear your perspective as well! Leave a comment with your thoughts or suggestions. Any favourites? Why? / Why not? Above, from Top Left, 1- Filtered. Below Left, 2- Tsunami of Hatred. Top Right, 3 - Fraud. Bottom Right, 4- Illusion, Deception & Deceit. 1 - Filtered. When the mind is churning and acting up, the unsuspecting partner is seen as outright evil. Everything about that person is severely detested - personality, gestures, their voice or hair. The coping mind filters the partner and translates that information as 'evil'. This allows them to acquire 'permission slip' to do what they what, when they want and with whom they want. It doesn't matter who gets hurt. 2- Tsunami of Hatred. The beginning of the power of the first wave is unleashed (and more will follow). Anger, insults, belittling, mockery, emotional bullying are just a small portion of the offerings of hatred. 3 - Fraud. Some continue with their 'public relations act' and a veil of decency, while riding 'stealth mode' on the backs of the respectable - earning 'brownie points.' They are frauds. 4 - Illusion, Deception & Deceit. When one is entitled to manipulate ... or have an agenda at any given time for any 'reason,' it is prudent to remember that you catch more bees with honey! The facade takes over to conceal what the seething rage and intended malice. Top Left, 5 - Ornament. Bottom Left, 6 - Trapped -The Child Within. Top Right, 7 - Birth, Bubble, Burst. Bottom Right, 8 - Taking The Hit 5 - Ornament. There are lots of 'ornaments around to adorn the life of the self-soother.' 6 - Trapped. The Child Within. The adult is exposed and 'calm' on the outside. The inner child appears numb and emotionally paralyzed deep down. There is that eerie quiet before the (emotional) storms that will follow ... 7 - Birth, Bubble, Burst. The birth of compromised emotional safety in early childhood. Repressed feelings and emotions that accumulate are left to fester and grow into an uneasy emotional pus. Growing sicker and sicker with time, and still hidden, the emotional pus of a soup bubbles its way up. Still unattended and growing at colossal proportions with anger, sorrow, it finally bursts free and messy - the violent, angry emotions everywhere. Just chaos. Anyone nearby will suffer for wrongs they did not create. Wrongs created years before. 8 - Taking The Hit. Feeling of guilt and shame are projected onto the 'enemy'. The one responsible for a life gone wrong for the sufferer. It is a brutal and exhausting experience for the receiver who is typically unprepared for such a reaction. Top Left, 9 - Impacted. Bottom Left, 10 - The Wrath of Guilt & Shame. Top Right, 11 - Reckless Slander & Confusion. Bottom Right, 12 - Frustration 9 - Impacted. When the sufferer's guilt and shame is projected out to the one being attacked, the load is too heavy to bear 10 - The Wrath of Guilt & Shame. The “shamed individual”. The impact of guilt and shame raging on emotional fuel. 11 - Reckless Slander & Confusion. Li ARRR! Lies and slander are recklessly dispersed. After a while identities are irrelevant as there are so many who are told of these lies. Only mouths & eyes appear everywhere. The occasional eyes stares are the 'offender' - the one brutally lied about. 12 - Frustration. Fighting a phantom. Self talk, headache, monkey mind, reminders of things to do although in a state of inertia. Inability to find a solution in chaos. More self (useless) talk. Remaining image titles are: 13 - 'Undeadable.' The body has life.The soul is exhausted but still fighting the natural progression to numbness 14 - Fight. All burnt out However, it's fight for life or perish 15 - Sorrow. An uneasy desert of quiet. Nothingness - no identifiable reasons. The weight of condensed sadness. 16 - Disposal. Identifying the sludge and attempting the 'big dump,' disposing the crap for a lighter load to MOVE ON! 17 - Forever. Unrecoverable LOST time ... for what? Too much life has been lost, forever. 18 - Escape. Surrender. Fall. Float - no more fighting is possible in this moment. Sheer fatigue - float away. 19 - Light In Spite. So much loss. Years of so much anxiety, worry, sadness and fear - and yet still present! There is light in spite (of it all) # 20, below, is a modification of the cover. Image # 20 is meant to be shared - if we are informed about the unpredictable nature of human behaviour, relative to an individual's experience, we may feel less victimized by it. Colour it, Scribble all over it - note your impressions and send it. write on the bread, the jar ... share. "Fight Ignorance. Spread Understanding" KNOWLEDGE really is POWER (& fewer hurt ppl :). Psyched Out 'Colouring mini Journal'
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