History.
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This was a combination of the earliest responses to adversity & challenge. A sick soup of quirky
... fun, mockery, resignation ..doodling to calm and distract the restless, anxous mind.
This includes (tensely executed) drawings representing many pity parties and plethoria of emotions
to meet the need to grieve. Both the 'knowns'
as well as the 'unknowns,' which just appeared without notfication had to be grieved.
All the mixed up (largely 'historical') stuff is combined here.
when life gives you lemontzz, make lemontzzaide (holding on/'hpg on')
Quirky lemontzz may have gotten this ball rolling, but they are no longer frequent. They were an introductory light phase of mindless, fun doodling activity to pass the time - & the anxiety. Still re-visited and a tip, they may come up in th eno too distant future "for fun"
At the moment, the emphasis is on Lemontz Musz-ings (& most recently PsychedO). Visual responses to thoughts and information from life - and overall experiences. Feedback from others. The experiment tis to make a learning tool through visual awareness. Still an unfolding thought visual reposes , this too is a journey , a WIP.
En (Closure)
An endless 'loop' -
Life mimics art, art mimics life, life mimics art, art mimics life,
life mimics art, art mimics life, life mimics art, art mimics life
... and on and on it goes. which way is it?
The world has a lotta lemons.' And these lemons get awfully heavy to carry after
a while. The heaviness of life's burden can't be endured indefinitely - its too much for one person. There isnt enough time to solve before the next wave of unknowns appear ...
When everyday activities and tasks get affected, one can feel like inadequate, unable to do as well as everyone else - one can feel like a lemon in a junk yard for old cars. Useless and not 'performing.' Until, the day comes when it's just too much, it's "enough".
Bruised, hurt, burned out, broken, deceived, angry and crying out ... 'Enough!".
Enough
Lemontzz (being) is the little quirky character seen in whacky Halloween images. The first Lemontzz was born during a cold period VERY cold time, like 'January cold' so the first pages were dated Jan 33rd. This was all in keeping with the sense of confusion & surreal existence at the time. The date seemed both real and 'surreal.' Time made no sense on that day. Time, dates, days were useless. They meant absolutely nothing where attaining a solution was concerned.
The lemontzz (being) was a fun character - something to doodle, 'play with' ... when all around was too much. A fun character. It would remain in and old of sight in different modes until later that year.
Halloween is also both "fun" and "horror" - kinda like life! The lemontzz character was experimented with for Halloween. Exploration and play followed. Silly or not did not matter. Acceptable didn't matter either. What mattered was releasing. Was ignoring any voice that said this does not make sense or is not the norm. Laughter and play on th surface concealed panic anxiety below, so this was no time for standards and societal acceptance. Whatever developed on the page seemed to be the only way out of the growing abyss. The 'form' it took DID NOT MATTER! The lemontzz being was a light hearted injection during difficult times.
LemontzzAide - is the healing of one sick lemon - hence the 'aid' with a band aid for the 'life gash'. Much of the reflection took place during the commute home. 'Conversations with self' developed through inner self reflection or musing. The images were NOT light - hearted (you can see them in the *store, link below under: 1 - Lemontzz Musings and 2 - Toxic Lemontzz ). They 'rough and tumbled' their way into consciousness during a bus ride on that cold day, 'Jan 33rd,' mentioned above. The pieces were not artistically mature, just matured enough to be released from within. Many remained 'tight' - an indication of anxiety and worry. Many need to be tweaked but were revealed (to you), simply because there would be no 'right time' - everything was changing fast, and nothing was certain.
Since that time, LemontzzAide has been 'on and off' the map of life like so many others, who try to fight adversity head on, while vulnerable! Still on the 'radar' with it's journeys, making more lemontzzaide after one vicious round of 'life's beatings' after another, the journey is an 'education of self' ... Right now it is that 'aid' that is truly sustaining, and hopefully rewarding in the end.
*Lemontzzaide (1 - Lemontzz Musz-ings and 2 - Toxic Lemontzz): www.zazzle.com/lemontzz_jan33
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Always being updated :) (when I can)
Since that time, LemontzzAide has been 'on and off' the map of life like so many others, who try to fight adversity head on, while vulnerable! Still on the 'radar' with it's journeys, making more lemontzzaide after one vicious round of 'life's beatings' after another, the journey is an 'education of self' ... Right now it is that 'aid' that is truly sustaining, and hopefully rewarding in the end.
*Lemontzzaide (1 - Lemontzz Musz-ings and 2 - Toxic Lemontzz): www.zazzle.com/lemontzz_jan33
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Always being updated :) (when I can)